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Posted by: Yuzihax
Date: 2009-09-29 21:05:27
Have we done this before? This certainly does seem…familiar.
All humor aside, yeah we're getting ready to do this all over again; albeit hopefully with an alternative ending to my stay the next time it comes around.
Don't worry, though, this isn't one of the times where it ends with "oh GCL I love you let's never fight again you and me forever never mind I hate you get out" type re-entrances.
During the nine months I've been absent from this place, I've come to, over that time, have some serious revelations concerning both my conduct overall attitude during my previous time.
I know now that, back in that time, it was…albeit not commonplace but definitely accurate to say I was egotistical, totalitarian-minded, and of course had several other like attributes, which all comes back to one thing.
Basically, I was an immature, self-centered, all-around jackass.
Looking back over the…preceding events and some-such that eventually ended up with me leaving, this is truly evident.
As an example, let's use my final posts in the "Admins Suck" thread (it was Admins Suck, was it not?) wherein I had the disposition in which I viewed that the topic need be closed because it had become a "spam topic" or whatever, which was really the general purpose of the thread at that time.
The immaturity, the totalitarian attitude are both very prominent in the way I conducted myself throughout that thread.
This is more so shown via my reaction when I hadn't gotten my way; this incident, combined with the fact that I at that time went with the administrative philosophy "I AM ADMINISTRATRON, I AM THE LAW, MY WORD IS FINAL. TREMBLE AND COWER IN FEAR AND MAYHAP YOU'LL BE SPARED." mindset that has beleaguered me for so very long finally set off the proper motions that caused me to yet again leave "forever".
I also ditched this place for quite a few other reasons; I was very…prone to overreaction at the time.
You can see where I'm getting at, with the "OH GODDAMMIT DRAMA I HATE DRAMA WHHHHY" type reactions to any sort of division in any event that ended with anger and obvious jackassery on my part (this seems like a part in which there's going to be a dispute along the lines of "you weren't that retarded for christ sake.")
I never…planned on having a full nine month absence, you know.
It was going to be just the standard "oh gcl i love you we're never going to fight again right guys" thing as usual until unprecedented amounts of background drama began to whip up.
We all know I'd of been back in a while, but then I was a more prideful individual.
This, of course, meant that as soon as I saw some certain people doing that stupid betting thing and the natural reactions of "he'll be back" (lol can't be mad about that one anymore amirite) sent me into anger overdrive, I went into "FUCK YOU YOU'LL SEE I'LL NEVER BE BACK" mode and then other things happened.
I got a few certain messages or something that were attempting by all means to drag me back, and this caused the drama-meter to nearly go off the scale with me, but eventually did so when PMs from a certain website regarding the situation I figured resolved were leaked here, and proved that the situation wasn't actually resolved.
This sparked the last major overreaction I'd have in this period of time overall; the final message log in "The Hax Has Left The Laboratory."
A…major overreaction to the situation at hand on my part, but it did mark an end to this entire thing.
Therefore, I've now been allotted the time I needed to come to the proper conclusions that have me back here, of sound mind and conduct, and admit my past infallicies that have caused me to spend so much time away from the forum that I still like in several regards.
I come back today wanting to go back to being a normal Glitch City Laboratories member, with a clean slate and all hatchets in question buried at least six feet and the holes covered with concrete and made into parking lots.
…I've basically ran out of words at this point, I've covered all the bases here and all that such.
That pretty much marks the end of this longass explaination slash apology slash other things.
Also, I've been granted the ability to work on the PhoneDex for the Crystal version, so I'll be doing something, at least; not coming back to this place just to hang around (although I will be doing that too when I'm not on the internet for half the week/not PhoneDex'in) and say "remember that one time where I got really pissed and…"
Okay so let's try not to "LOL I TOLD YOU SO" all up in this bitch, 'kay?
kthxbai
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