Why I changed my name
Posted by: Abwayax
Date: 2009-11-18 00:46:38
However, I just wanted to explain the reason behind the name change. I view it simply as the end of a chapter of my life. The name Abwayax has been through so much crap, much of it rather negative. It has gone through so much drama. The name change is simply a way for me to distance myself from those events and allow myself to focus on the future.
There is no denying the importance of the past. However, there are many things that are best left alone. Tying myself to that world is not something I want anymore. I want to simply fade away in the eyes of those who have no more importance in my life. Since this name change there are undoubtedly people on a handful of forums wondering what has happened to "Abwayax" (or "Number 100"). For those forums, he no longer exists. On GCLF and a select handful of forums, he continues to exist as "Adrian Malacoda". This isn't a "new me," it's the same old me with a different name.
Maybe those who really do miss me will hit up GCLF and find me again. I wouldn't mind that. This isn't abou distancing myself from anyone who wants me in their lives, it's about fading away from those who want to be rid of me.
I have largely succeeded. On a certain forum my girlfriend helped run, I have not visited since September. I have not been within 20 feet of an IRC client in many months. The former "Knights who say Meh" and their followers are gone from me. It is refreshing, to say the least.
I don't intend the name change to indicate that I am a different person. I'm not.