It was nice to see you all again
Posted by: Sherkel
Date: 2020-02-02 06:54:06
While leaving may seem over the top, there's only so much pressure I can take, and whatever desire I have remaining to continue updating and maintaining the site is outweighed by the heavy realization my involvement isn't as valued as I had thought it was. I'm not one for permanent declarations of anything, so it's more likely than not that I will still appear again. I just know I need some time away.
As the only admin both interested in the subject material and active on Discord, I would not have forgiven myself if despite my standing, I was still too afraid to speak up. I'm relieved that I overcame that hesitation, especially seeing as it paved the way to discovering what the community truly thought of me being here. It's certainly not the first time this has happened, so thank all of you for being honest and not prolonging this unnecessarily for me!
This site was the first I ever became a significant part of and the first I moderated, and as time went on I realized more and more how much my early time here shaped my views of how to communicate on the Internet, as well as how moderation and leadership of small groups in general ought to be conducted. This was a driving force behind my latest phase of activity, and while the results of providing new users a helping hand and bringing the knowledge base up to speed have been mixed, I'm glad to have done what I have and also to have a clear indication of when to stop.
Having done everything I could think of for this community in the two years since I returned, it's with a clear head that I can finally step away, knowing now that this is another way I can help.
Thank you!